Day 2!.. eh

Hello to the people my blog interests. So today was a quite ravishing day!... -_-
Today I was actually thinking of what to write here tonight.

So I turned in my history paper, but it wasn't good enough. You want to know how I knew it wasn't good enough? Because my History teacher handed it right back to me and told me that my 5 page outline was not part of his requirements. To my dismay he was right :(. SO.. What do you think I did? I wrote the essay in his requirements as best I could. Just now. I just finished it. It's due tomorrow. And now it's 3 pages long. I feel pretty accomplished.

What else happened today? Well I ate lunch... by myself. This is a very sad thing. I usually have many friends who surround me and I feel so wanted and loved. OK that is a lie. I do have friends, they just weren't around today or busy with "their" stuff. Which I totally understand. I mean to be a little bit selfish I would rather have them to myself, obviously. Do I sound a bit conceited for writing that? Maybe I am, but who isn't now a days. I mean we all want the best for ourselves. We all are self absorbed and only want what will benefit ourselves, right? Right :)

Unfortunately, in todays' times, the world has turned into "survival of the fittest". Especially trying to get into college. Today it is very competitive to get into a good school. They only want the best. But what exactly is the "best"? Who ever get the top grades, gets first choice in what college they plan to attend. And college will most likely choose the top students. Even if a struggling student puts in so much effort and still fails college won't care for them unless they can show it on their transcripts. But what if someone is trying every hard to understand the material? and puts in as much effort as they can? and crams all night to make sure that the work they will be presenting will be top notch. And the student fails or gets a lower score than they hoped for. This event will most likely bring a student's self esteem down, to a very low level. Then they won't want to put in as much effort next time.
In my opinion, colleges should evaluate prospective students on their effort and not just the letter that appears on the report card. There are students who put in the hours and want to get accepted to the colleges of their choice, but they don't make the grade. It's not fair! I, for one, would like to receive that acceptance letter come in the mail any day now. The wait for what my future may be or not be depends on six letter word. One word is positive. ACCEPT. One word is negative. REJECT. Both words have six letters, which makes the wait even more suspenseful. Which word will it be? The stress grows more everyday. The wait becomes more exonerating everyday.
Well that's a pointless way to spend my life. Once those letters come, I think I will be fine, no matter was the conclusion is. At least the wait will be over. But then the panic starts. If the "acceptance" comes, I am bound to panic on how to register and what to buy, and who to ask advice from. How will I want to spend my college years? There are two options: party like a rock star and drop out (everything I worked for goes down the drain, along with the tuition money) or I could study very hard, join different clubs and activities and become something in life. I can become a professional! wow! *sigh*
But what if the "rejection" comes? I will most likely freak out and say something like " Oh! My life! What am I to do with myself? I don't want to live at home until I'm forty." Or I might take the positive route and apply to community college. Yup that's what I'll do, very calmly.

Well I believe this is where I will end today
Please feel free to comment or ask anything you would like my opinion. I will be here tomorrow around the same time.
Good night world!

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